Jayism:
Out of everybody You were who I hated most.
A fucking grown man Who's afraid of ghosts.
All those secrets You could only find a way to cloak.
All that venom laced in Everything you say to folks.
Drinking and laughing with that apathetic parade of jokes.
Great insults for a guy - Sitting with a plate of coke.
With a wife and kid at home. How could you betray 'em both?
For these stupid whores - Where's your loyalty? you made an oath.
Look at the results of a lost soul - sowing his oats.
In a sea full of fucking sharks rowing his boat.
With a hole in it plus it's dark, you ain't got nowhere to go.
And so -
You threw away every gift you had.
For another bag another fifth two a day. Sad.
All those opportunities that you had.
People would kill for - you threw in the trash.
Low self esteem misconstrue it as brash.
Your old selfish dream And that ruinous wrath.
That Chews you in half. Day to day On a regular basis.
And you just run the other way whenever you face this. Fact.
And I'm! Getting so sick of Your face in the mirror.
There's no place where it's clearer than there.
I'm going zero to here in instant.
- running on instinct.
Can't get your dreams and my nightmares in sync.

Those ghosts talk to me in my head.
They're still there. No they're not dead.
And there was so much blood to be shed.
But I could never kill them all.
Prayers for rain to wash away.
But no, heaven never calls.
We stay trapped in yesterday.
And that's the legend of the fall.

Taking a look at you is difficult. Creature in his cups is ugly.
Too high to keep reaching for the stuff, Unlovely.
Off the hinges. Out on the fringes.
Outsider out for revenge, a vengeance.
The war never ends.
It spins in the winds And trenches.
Sensin' the bloodshed.
It Begins and it ends with,
Regrets you had had. Too many things to mention.
All those ghosts in the past are a grim contingent.
But what's fueling the engine, is no fooling pretending.
No principles among this hard knock school we're attending.
Your Willing to partake, In any rule that you bending.
This land of the heartbreak, Where nobody remembers ya name.
Unless you king or menace the same.
Between heaven and hell I had seen the pendulum swang.
Watched the hope float away in ten inches of rain.
So is it dope show today or penances and pain.
Yeah I seen it all everything you ever been through.
It all happened how it's supposed to, It was all essential.
All the things that you endured, the bottom you descent to.
It's time to let go of that past, stop being sentimental.
See I forgive you for all the shit That you lived through.
For all the shit that was done to you. Everything that you did too.
Meltin' a cold heart and stepping out of that igloo,
Emerges a good man, But you was a good kid too. ...read more