Holding a safe space for this body & mind of mine as we go through this journey together 🤍

It’s easy to cast blame, guilt & shame on ourselves. With infecting thoughts & questions: “My body HATES me. Why does my body work against me & not for me? Why do I react so unhinged when my PTSD is triggered? I should be able to control my thoughts & reactions. What’s wrong with me? My suffering makes others suffers. It would be better off if I didn’t exist.”

During these moments when the internal narrative has taken a turn for the worse, I do my best to still my being, focus on breath & shift my thoughts. “My body loves me. My body is incredible as it fights not only to survive but thrive against the chronic illnesses & pain that inflict us. My mind is powerful & trying to keep me safe as it goes into fight or flight. I must do my best to remind myself during the triggers born from trauma that I am not my PTSD. I am not my anxiety. I am not my depression. I am safe. Those who hurt with me is because they love me & are advocates in my fight to get better. My existence matters.”

I know this can be easier said than done. I at times need aid from prescription medications, cannabis & shrooms which different parts of society looks down upon - some even going as far as shaming those who takes them. I believe taken responsibly prescription medications & other forms of treatments & therapies can be incredible aids on one’s healing journey. Everyone’s bodies & minds are different & responds differently to different forms of aids.

The best thing we can do for both others & ourselves is to stop the blame, guilt, & shame. Instead to provide for both others & ourselves with love, support, empathy & advocacy. To hold & keep a safe space.

The journey is not always easy, I’m still working to feel safe after 10 yrs of severe trauma. But thanks to the help of others & the work I’m placing in myself, I’m finally starting to feel safe again.

Be gentle as you hold yourself. Be kind, forgiving. Give yourself the attention you need & deserve. Never give up on yourself, for you will make it through the darkness.

Hugs, love & always my deepest support fam. xxx.

 Advocate 
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