Hello my beautiful soul brothers & sisters ✨♥️ Peace out with solid vibes Utah ✌🏼🤙🏼

I’m going to stay real with y’all… My time living in SLC, UT has not been the greatest for me. When coming to UT I felt adopted by a new community but as time went on I felt I didn’t belong. I had the painful experience & grief of discovering who were my real friends & fam vs the fakes there (though I recognize those individuals perspectives are different than my own, to the best of my ability be empathetic to their truth vs mine) Even though I was surrounded by those beautiful souls who were true (love you btw) I felt like life was crushing me in more ways than one.

My chronic illnesses became more severe & scary ~ needing further testing, treatments & surgeries. My mental health greatly suffered where I hit lows I never thought would hit; experiencing depression & suicidal thoughts which scared the shit out of me. I felt a loss of Self. My confidence & love was shot. And the pain & division of the world was & continues to be so hard to witness. A tsunami hitting in various forms physically, mentally & emotionally.

Summer of 2021 I desperately wanted to runaway right then & there. Pretend it was all a bad dream. But I acknowledged I couldn’t leave without resolving, forgiving, letting shit go to the best of my ability & embracing those & what I love in Utah.

I’m now in a place where I can move with a smile on my face vs tears in my eyes. I’m on my way to OKC where I was born & raised. Ready to kick chronic illnesses ass with my medical team as we fight for remission. While being surrounded by my immense support system there 💕 Monday I receive my 15th surgery in the last 9 yrs. & I’m more than ready to kick ass!

Many have asked if OK is where I want to be - at the moment yes. Be it my forever home or a stepping stone to the next destination I don’t know but I’m open to what comes!

What matters most to me is living in the Now - keeping my soul open & growing, my chi unblocked & flowing, while continuing on my journey. 🤟🏼✨🌻🙏🏼

We go through shit in life but like the badass lotus & Phoenix we grow from the mud & rise from the ashes 😌

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—> @wisefool ♻️♥️
@wisefool @getwisefool @taylor_munholland @dirtbaggypsies @rrawimpact
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