Rusty Holmes echoed from I.G.

Wednesday, May 14 · 10:43 AM ·  

No more bandaid fixes.

The past several days I’m sad to share that I have been terribly struggling with my health. Yesterday I went to the doctor and discovered I have an acute respiratory infection which has really knocked me down + massively flared my chronic diseases.

I’ve always struggled with sharing the darker moments with photos vs captions, especially with my health as I don’t want to further trigger my PTSD. But during this latest flare I was in severe pain where I needed to take hydrocodone for my pelvic pain along with taking a prescription for the sinus pressure, I had bandages on one side of my face + the one you can clearly see on the middle of my forehead due to blisters/rash forming from the Mast Cell Activation Syndrome flaring. All the while laying on the bathroom floor with a blanket as I administered an enema as I was incapable of having a bowel movement on my own. Perhaps it was the medicine I was on or the melancholy of the entire situation that I decided to take a handful of photos and create art to share the experiences of one suffering from chronic ailments.

With this I believe I may have discovered a therapeutic way to express what I’m going through without becoming triggered. I’m sure I will have days where I may need to archive the photos or those days are further permission to take time off my social media.

I’ve been doing a lot of reexamining-rediscovering who I am of late. When I do this it always comes back to me being an artist. The need and passion to express and create. To dive in deeper within and without myself.

I’m calling the collection of photos “No more bandaid fixes” because the bandaid in the middle of my forehead had me think of all the “bandaid fixes” chronic illness warriors have to go through; meaning all the treatments and therapies that can/cannot help with our conditions but are always temporary and never truly fixing the problem. Why we remain chronic.

Some of the images I may share overtime may be hard to look at but I hope they bring further awareness which leads to further empathy, research, and cures; no more bandaid fixes.

Never give up.

xo. #chronicillness #chronicpain #youarenotalone
@taymunholland @rrawimpact
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No more bandaid fixes. The past several days I’m sad to share that I have been terribly struggling with my health. Yesterday I went to the doctor and discovered I have an acute respiratory infection which has really knocked me down + massively flared my chronic diseases. I’ve always struggled with sharing the darker moments with photos vs captions, especially with my health as I don’t want to further trigger my PTSD. But during this latest flare I was in severe pain where I needed to take hydrocodone for my pelvic pain along with taking a prescription for the sinus pressure, I had bandages on one side of my face + the one you can clearly see on the middle of my forehead due to blisters/rash forming from the Mast Cell Activation Syndrome flaring. All the while laying on the bathroom floor with a blanket as I administered an enema as I was incapable of having a bowel movement on my own. Perhaps it was the medicine I was on or the melancholy of the entire situation that I decided to take a handful of photos and create art to share the experiences of one suffering from chronic ailments. With this I believe I may have discovered a therapeutic way to express what I’m going through without becoming triggered. I’m sure I will have days where I may need to archive the photos or those days are further permission to take time off my social media. I’ve been doing a lot of reexamining-rediscovering who I am of late. When I do this it always comes back to me being an artist. The need and passion to express and create. To dive in deeper within and without myself. I’m calling the collection of photos “No more bandaid fixes” because the bandaid in the middle of my forehead had me think of all the “bandaid fixes” chronic illness warriors have to go through; meaning all the treatments and therapies that can/cannot help with our conditions but are always temporary and never truly fixing the problem. Why we remain chronic. Some of the images I may share overtime may be hard to look at but I hope they bring further awareness which leads to further empathy, research, and cures; no more bandaid fixes. Never give up. xo. #chronicillness #chronicpain #youarenotalone @taymunholland @rrawimpact @taymunholland
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