‘Believe In Self’ - A portrait I drew years back while living in California. Inspired from a day I was recovering from a chronic pain & diseases flare. I was unable to do much on that day besides lay & rest but on that day it was one of the first recovery periods that I didn’t see it as a “lazy day” or “wasted day”. It was instead a day where even though I was unable to be active or mainstream “productive”, I saw the day as beautiful & impactful. It was a day where I was not 100% but I was feeling the inner sunshine begin to rise & illuminate within my body & soul. A breath of fresh air after feeling I was drowning. A time of gratitude to my body for fighting the pain, battling diseases & deserving this day of conscious aware rest. A reminder not give up & know better days are coming. This is one of my most precious works of art I have created.

These last two weeks of December has been full of life challenges with unexpected financial & health hits. It’s not how I imagined the start of this month to go or how I pictured myself going into the new year. I had massively different thoughts & plans but it looks like life is taking me on yet another path I did not expect myself to take. Though I wish things could have gone differently, believe me these hits have flat out fucking sucked (no sugar coating), still where I am is so much better from where I have been. I know I will recover financially & health wise I’m not giving up on going into remission.

Life is full of ups & downs. Often we believe everyone else is having more ups than we are. I know I can go into compare & self deprecation mode when scrolling on my hard days. I personally don’t share many photos of my pain & sick times on my feed as I battle with PTSD & do not want to relive the trauma every time I open up my social media. I have to remind myself that I’m not the only one not having a great day every day. We all struggle. We are all fighting our own individual & often silent battles for a better Now. Reminder to be patient with yourself. Believe in yourself. Never give up on yourself. Know you are fighter & within your fight you are not alone.

Absolute love & support, always.

xo. #rrawimpact
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